The Once Again Lone Wolf

Anal Glaucoma

Fri, 09 Jan 2009 18:05:32 GMT

Definition: when ya can't see your ass going into work.

-- Post From My iPhone

At mom and dad's

Mon, 05 Jan 2009 00:04:58 GMT

It has been a peaceful weekend at mom and dad's house. It has snowed the whole time so I took am extra day off for safe travel tomorrow. Really? I need the extra day just to start feeling normal again.

I have some snowy pictures on my phone that I should load for facebook. LOL. Very exciting.

-- Post From My iPhone

Sleepless

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 11:39:25 GMT

What a night. I am sleepless and it sucks. Bad! I don't feel so terribly alone. As a matter of fact I feel pretty good.

But I'm awake and it's way too early to be awake. I feel slightly unwell and my stomach kind of hurts. I'm not going to drink tonight even though it's New Year's Eve. I am going to have fun and that's it.

-- Post From My iPhone

My boss.

Tue, 30 Dec 2008 18:32:44 GMT

And again he has waited for the last day for coach to coach. What a dork.

-- Post From My iPhone

Gaza Madness

Tue, 30 Dec 2008 10:35:31 GMT

By the way. The world is going crazy, in case you didn't know. People are picking up arms and people are dying. Sheesh people. I don't think the world will ever see eye to eye.

People kills and allies just stand by and do nothing. Amazing. Well I suppose allies are important. But still it won't be long before we see the world go down in flames.

Maybe stocking up goods isn't such a terrible idea. Food and water. Or maybe I'm paranoid in my old age.

-- Post From My iPhone

Zomg on Gaia Online

Tue, 30 Dec 2008 10:29:09 GMT

This is a pretty fun game. I think it's the social concept of crewing. I find my tolerance for people is often at a minimum in the evening and some people are annoying and stupid online. I have to deal with idiots at work and I don't get paid to deal with them at home or online.

It's just fun with certain people and not with others. I'm sleepy now. Bed is for sleeping. For sure.

-- Post From My iPhone

Men

Mon, 29 Dec 2008 23:59:06 GMT

I mentioned I have stopped seeing joey after several years. It's amazing how quickly you're forgotten when you stop putting out.

Truly amazing. I thought we were friends. Apparently not.

-- Post From My iPhone

Another cold one

Mon, 29 Dec 2008 09:10:30 GMT

Pool was fun. Played later than I thought. Zomg on Gaia and off to bed after 2am. I need some quality cleaning time at home soon. Am tired; goodnight.

-- Post From My iPhone

Pool hall madness

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 22:15:19 GMT

I love hanging out with the corporate peeps and work chat. Having a good time and laughing with friends.

Good times and lots of fun. Rumor mongering.

-- Post From My iPhone

App addiction

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 19:41:01 GMT

Haha. This is terrible. I like applications a lot and am finding most of my stuff for my iPod touch. Wow. I am more and more mobile and I see where mobile phones are still lacking a lot.

Except the iPhone. Getting closer to taking the plunge. Sheesh. LOL. God Apple rocks.

-- Post From My iPhone

So. After a year I am back

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 18:49:22 GMT

The year 2008 was interesting indeed. I am now a supervisor at Verizon. I like it well enough. Feel like this is a good place to be.

I have gotten rid of Joey. Finally. I am feeling freer. I've started playing pool and am hopelessly addicted.

Have iPod touch. Love this applications thing. Am getting closer to getting an iphone. But I love my touch. Would need to enjoy if more before taking the plunge.

-- Post From My iPhone

Contentment in Red

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 09:06:48 GMT

My life. It has become a whirlwind since I started working at Verizon. I have finally embraced my vampiric self. With this understanding, my magic has increased exponentially for the first time ever. I have learned that the decreased flow of subtle-body energy has taught me to compensate by cycling energy within. Though I might be running a quart short, I have extremely refined energy that when sent out during spellwork has an incredible effect. I will spare the details of how I replace the energy expelled. It would frighten those who understand not. But my early experiments in astral travel have paid off in spades.

I now work a late-afternoon to evening shift which works well for me. It keeps me up until the quiet hours of night that I need for magic to occur. I have started moving forward and setting events in place to get me moving forward ahead of my peers.

Have I found my love yet? No he doesn't exist and is nowhere on the horizon. And that is okay with me. I have far to go.

I have become ever more disparaging of humanity at large. But I have learned to temper that with control to gain what I want.

Have I become darker in nature? Yes I have. Am I markedly different since I was actively using this journal? Yes. At last the true understanding of the self has come through. To those I call friend, I am the most loyal. To all others I am cold and distant, but close enough to keep manipulating circumstances my way. I have no fear for I am in complete control of the future trends.

In love, I was recently attracted to someone at Verizon. But after trying to get him to hook up for 2 months, it is apparent he is not ready. He is missing out on a great opportunity. I do not begrudge his attitude; it is merely where he stands in life now. But I do know he has missed out.

This coming Tuesday I am going to start the A+ certification class in anticipation of becoming certified. Verizon Wireless is footing the bill.

I also switched phones and am the proud happy owner of a Blackberry 8703e. At work I am also getting a yearly bonus on the next paycheck. Its only $400 but that's good considering I was only working @ Verizon for 2 months last year. I hear others are getting bonuses in the thousands. Mine is actually $740 but after taxes it'll be about $480. I wasn't expecting even $200 so that's a plus. It's free money!

Joey? Ah yes. My lover and donor. I adore him. He is not wholly mine and I am not wholly his. We have what works and that is fine for now.

Stratus Phear? My old band rejected me and was #3 of the items I lost in the shake up of the summer of 2003. I'm glad that those were lost. It helped me move forward from an otherwise stagnant place that was.doomed to produce eventual self-loathing.

What shall come? I do not need to wait and see. I drive forward and bring the opportunities I need. I am in control.

Changing schedules

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 05:21:20 GMT

Work schedule is changing starting tomorrow. I show up at 1:00pm and stay til 9:30pm. I think I'll enjoy this new schedule because I need to stop the morning thing. I hate mornings, so early afternoons are going to work so much better for me.

Work at Verizon is going very well and things are as they should be. I think my new team will be interesting, if not as fun as my previous team at work. I've moved to my new desk which is nice, as it is right next to a large post meaning I have one neighbor on one side. I'm going to enjoy that a lot, I think.

Waiting for word about Xavier, my new interest. He seems interested one minute, but he's pulling off "disinterest" and I'm not sure how to take that. I know that I'm not interested in chasing him down every day. We'll see what happens. He knows I'm interested, and now he needs to take a few steps, goddamn it.

Life has changed for much the better, and I feel a lot better walking the path I'm on now vs where I was at. No longer running myself into the earth and feeling a lot better about where I am on the whole. I haven't updated too much here, so my apologies. I think I'll keep writing here occasionally.

Honestly though? Deadjournal is... well... dead.

My new web site obsession: Vampire Rave.com If you are interested in joining, please use this link!!!! I get points for referrals. :) It's like MySpace for goth and darkness junkies. Beware what you find there...

Ah, I'll post the link on the next update... LATERZ!!!

An update

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 04:20:22 GMT

I still am keeping my deadjournal running but for some reason I felt inclined to type an update here.

Life is trucking forwards and I have been at Verizon Wireless since the start of October. The job is going well and I find myself among more compatible people. And... I have found someone who finally truly interests me in every way. We're supposed to go hang out early this next week.

Life is becoming ever more complicated.. :( But other than that, i suppose it hasn't gotten any worse at least.

Welcome to the last entry of this journal...

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 03:12:18 GMT

I have made the move. I may be back. But don't count on it.

New Journal: PFM by Night... a DeadJournal

If you are interested, I could always generate you a nice passcode to join deadjournal... I will linger here for the purpose of viewing friends' pages. I do want to see what everyone else is up to...

This is the End

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 05:03:53 GMT

It's a great Door's song. I think it's just called "The End". I separated with my band tonight. It was coming soon because of the going back to school thing. I'm moving into an aggressive stage of moving forward, and getting rid of the comfortable "in between" trappings I set up for myself is a necessary, if painful step.

My time is ending. This whole phase of life is ending in time for Samhain and the consequent new beginning. Gods help me, I hope I am moving in the right direction.

Deadjournal

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 00:02:31 GMT

I'm debating moving to deadjournal.com. I'll still maintain livejournal as a free account so I can check up on my friendy friends... but I have been wanting a deadjournal since... last year? So I will be moving. As soon as I get verification and have created the username for deadjournal, the last formal entry in this journal will connect to the deadjournal. I'm going to try it out first and see what it's like. I may decide it really sucks... who knows?

~Drea~

Finally think I have figured out a fix

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 05:58:33 GMT

For my laptop problem: I need to get a new hard drive (there's no getting around it). And I need to also get OS cd's for Macintosh OSX Panther (10.2). I should be able to upgrade to 10.3 from the cd's my brother copied for me, but I need to be able to install it first. I'm confirming information about that with the Apple discussion boards first, so we'll see what comes up.

But I'm on the right track, and if this one is correct, I can do it for about... $120.00 or slightly higher if I want a bigger hard drive...

a broken mac

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 05:18:40 GMT

ok, and so one of my macs is having hd trouble. it won't start up and instead gives me this terrible error. i know the hard drive is bad. that's the only possible solution at this point. so now i need to replace the hard drive. :( very sad. but i can do that and load the system software on my own, thereby saving me the trouble of paying someone else to do it.

"Heroes" on NBC

Tue, 24 Oct 2006 02:44:58 GMT

Yeah, so I'm addicted to this tv show. It's really good. And it's a little creepy. But it's a great show! :) The plot is a little complex to be explaining in LJ land, but you should check it out on NBC's web site. OMG, it's a good show. People with real super powers awakening to a purpose they don't understand/ know yet.

Man, I'm HOOKED.

AOL is closing its doors in New Mexico

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 02:40:35 GMT

Sad news. I saw on the news this week that AOL is closing its doors. I feel sad because of all my friends who still work there. I wonder what they're all going to do? I'm concerned for them.

And so...

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 00:00:38 GMT

UPS came through today and I am now sitting on my new laptop logged into my network at home wirelessly. Well it's "new to me" and it has a lot of funcitonality and faster stuff than the old one does. I'm pretty happy with it and am just now putting it through its paces. I'm just glad the battery is going to undoubtedly last longer than the other one. I put in my ebay feedback. I'm really happy, less than a week and the laptop is here and ready to go.

New toys are always a lot of fun. We'll see what this one can do. :)

Crystal energy retention

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 04:13:53 GMT

Don't get me wrong, I still will post in my other journal as well, but on this path I'm going to start using this journal probably more often than the other one.

I've been having troubles with the balancing act of feeding/ maintaining lately. I think that the main cause is stress in my life. Stress means I usually don't meditate the way I would ordinarily. No meditation means that I'm not managing my energy very well.

Though I am classifying as a psi-vampire, I am very much an energy worker. I work with crystals and stones. I've studied them more in depth in terms of storing energy. Think of it like storing blood in the refrigerator for emergencies... the psi-vamp way.

As a creature attuned to energy, I have discovered that it is indeed possible to store energy into crystals. It's kind of like charging them with energy, only there's no true intent. It's just pouring in energy. Some crystals retain energy quite well. My quartzes are really good for that, smoky quartz especially (for me).

I'm testing the theory that if one charges a crystal with their energy a little bit at a time, it can be used as an energy source come a true emergency. I have heard it said that stones and objects don't usually maintain the levels of energy that would be needed by a psi-vamp if he/she should get into dire need for energy. I'm not trusting to theory that a crystal would be any better than any other object, but it's something to consider at least. Maybe more to the point, by being in contact with the crystal every day, I am cycling energy in a more efficient way between feedings.

Psychic Vampyre Community on LJ

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 05:03:57 GMT

Yeah, if you can't find em... start one. Works for me every time. I really wanted to find a community of people where it was free-form and easy to get access to information/ others and alas, I haven't found what I was looking for...

So..

Shameless plug.. I admit it...

psivampyre is for those of us who don't have a community on LJ and it's being designed as an open discussion journal with resources and hopefully a little bit of help.

I don't claim to know everything about being a psychic vampyre, but I am one. I haven't found any really great resources online (well a few!) and I've come short when looking for vampyre community types in my area. So, the next best solution... START ONE!

Open to all vampyres (sanguine or psi) and black swans (friends).

EVDO arrives in Albuquerque

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 15:14:02 GMT

Evdo launched this morning in ABQ. now my cell internet is nice and fast. Evdo is the broadband feature and so when my new laptop arrives it'll be time to learn to link up. :) I can't wait! In class, so more later.

Squee!!! Broadband for my Treo.